So I decided to take some time to read, meditate and calm myself, try to see things in a different light.
Go to my daily reading books, open the first one "Living the Wisdom of the Tao" by Wayne Dyer. As God is my witness, this is the chapter I was on and this is what I read:
"There is no greater misfortune than feeling I have an enemy, for when I have an enemy, there is no room for God"...
There is a saying among soldiers:
I dare not make the first move
but would rather play the guest;
I dare not advance an inch
but would rather withdraw a foot.
This is called
going forward without advancing,
pushing back without using weapons.
There is no greater misfortune
than feeling "I have an enemy";
for when "I" and "enemy" exist together,
there is no room left for my treasure.
Thus, when two opponents meet,
the one without an enemy
will surely triumph.
When armies are evenly matched,
the one with compassion wins.
I'll be going into this meeting with a different mindset now. I think I have an inkling what I needed to learn here. Thanks once again to two of my favorite spiritual guides, Wayne Dyer & Lao Tzu :)